'I freed a thousand slaves I could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves.'
As someone who grew up watching my mother suffer from domestic violence, I am trained to recognise the signs of chronic abuse. NHS state GPs are being abused! Wake up! You are in a catch 22. You cannot take the government to employment tribunal because you are 'independent contractors', yet you are not independent as the government keeps changing the terms and conditions of your contract and making it more and more exploitative. Even your pension is not untouchable and the terms can be changed as this is exempt from contractual law! Your chronic stress is because working terms are being changed willy nilly and you cannot work any harder and keep sane. And when you recognise you have no breaks for food, the loo, etc., you still live in denial that even your basic human rights are being denied. I don't want you to end in a coffin well before your appointed time!
I had a Chinese friend at Hopkins who chose IT instead of medicine. She is now wed to a lawyer in SF and they bought a $2.35 million architectual wonderpiece 4BR house last year. No worried about QOF, GMC, CQC, NHSE, CCGs, etc. Once upon a time, doctors and surgeons were the ones who lived in grand houses, but only here in the UK have I seen a doctor live in a ground floor council flat, she bought with her hard earned NHS money. It beggars belief.
You can still love medicine and care about people, but you have to love and respect yourself first. Please recognise the signs of slavery. The government enticed private GPs away to join the NHS in 1948 by paving the mouths of private doctors with gold, more gold than they could earn in the private sector. Then they piled on the work and kept piling on the work, until an entire generation forgot how to be independent private GPs and earn their own living. Now you live in fear of not knowing how to charge clients if you go private, so you stay put and suffer. Fear of financial poverty is for domestic violence wives who do not have a college education, you have more than that, you have MRCGP, an internationally recognised medical diploma.
And when they say, but won't you get bored if you retire early? I have never met a bored retired GP. For me, I spend my time renovating my home and browsing the houzz interior design app. Love it. Believe me, wives who do not have to work, do yourself a favour and quit so you can be a good wife and mother if this job is killing you.